This is a concept that I fight with on an almost daily basis.
Today I started doing my daily word count at around 10:10 am. When I looked back at the clock after writing 2,000 words, it was 11:05 am. I managed to write 2,000 words in under an hour. Yep. Haven’t done that in a long while.
Here’s where I struggle. I know others out there are working 9 – 5 jobs. They work all day. I know not all day, but they have to stay at work for all that time. I’m at home in my nice cozy chair, sipping coffee. And yes, there is editing to be done this afternoon for a few hours, but still. I could push and write more.
Even so, I decided that for a while, I’m not going to push and write more. I find that when I do that, the quality of what I write goes down. I used to be able to push out 5,000 words a day with relative ease. And I still could if I wanted to. I could write a whole novel in a month if I did that. But the quality of what I like to write would certainly go down. I know there are others who can write efficiently at that speed and I commend them. In fact, I admire them. I wish I could be more like them. But I’ve found that my brain tires out if I so much as try. And in the spirit of Nano, I don’t want to burn out early. I’ve got keep the flame going steady and strong. If I strain it and try to create a bigger fire, I fear it might dwindle down into nothing. So I’m going to maintain what I’m doing. Because right now, it’s working.
So here’s to being a rebel.
Speaking of rebels, I drew a card from my Lucy Cavendish ‘Les Vampires’ Oracle Deck a couple nights ago. The card that came up was “Rebellion.” I think it’s well suited to the what I’m currently doing. Maybe the universe is telling me that it’s okay to be a bit of a rebel. Maybe it’s okay not to be obsessed with productivity.
I’ve gotten to the point of believing that productivity is an addiction like any other. Americans in particular seem to be obsessed with it. If you don’t produce something, you aren’t worth anything. When I went to school abroad, I was amazed by how little was expected of me. Back at uni in the U.S., I might have a quiz, a test, 200+ pages of reading, and an essay all due in a single week. When I went to the U.K., they told me to write one essay a month. Then gave us a week off in which to write it where we didn’t have to go to class. Um…..done! Easily. Without the week off. The rest of the world seems to function at a slower pace than we Americans and I think it might be a much more efficient way of getting things done.
That’s the line of thinking I’m trying to commit to right now. And let me tell you, it’s hard!
Current personal mantra: Less is more! Less is more! Less is more!